the line that made me laugh
"I feel like I'm at an open mic right now, and I'm just bombing in front of myself."
I wrote that while journaling yesterday. That's what it feels like to write. I'm puking words out of my fingers onto the screen, and the only one who's reading is an uninterested, unimpressed, impatient asshole.
But being completely honest and accurate about how it feels to write made me laugh. I can't remember the last time I did that for myself while writing. It felt so good, I tried to do it again but came up short. I can't control what comes out or how. It was a very nice, very welcome break in the usual pattern. I look forward to the next one.