There's friction. That's expected. Not everything is sticking in my mind. There are certain concepts I've had to slow down and spend all day revisiting. Identifying the bruised ego impulse to give up is getting easier. I’m more persistent now. I'll make exponential progress with this development alone.
I’m picturing a near future where I have the confidence in a coding context similar to the curiosity I bring to an acting or clowning workshop environment. I can’t see exactly what that's like. I’m relaxed, jovial, social and creative. It isn't much more specific than that. For now, being confidently competent is a good guiding light for me. Looking back at previous concepts I’ve struggled through and seeing that I grasp it now is reason enough to believe that more confidence and more competence is on its way.